Hey everyone, how have you been as of late? It's been about two months since I've been online, I guess, and so much has happened. I do apologize for the neglect I've shown this account, and I do hope to be online more in the upcoming weeks.

Just in case you're wondering since I asked you, I haven't been doing well. Simply, life has been really shitty and no matter what, the bad things just keep coming. Though I'm telling you below, I can give you more specific details about it without the public's veiwing.

Since I've been gone, I've:
1. Started school off great & attended 2 football games and the Welcome Back dance.
2. Went to Homecoming, was asked to dance for the first time ever & had a great time.
(In case you already didn't know #1-2)
3. Been super busy with school & homework. So much so that I come home from school at 3 pm and sit doing homework until 10 pm. My school is the elite in Oregon and they don't hesitate to prove it.
4. Performed in the first Choir Concert & attended the Women's Treble Choir Festival.
5. Been evicted from an apartment & had to move.
6. Been to a four band concert in Salem, OR. (First time in Salem! October 30th)
7. Was a Gothic Fairy for Halloween & went to a dance, hanging out with my friend and boyfriend.
8. Hung out with my boyfriend a whole lot & experienced much. (Sundays & Fridays, and any other we can get together, which is hardly any)
9. Took my boyfriend out to my mom's with me for a weekend (Nov. 6th).
10. Fought countless time with my dad & we have so many problems...
11. ^ Wrote more poetry. I've been writing every single day because I feel so shitty and down lately.
12. Started drawing again.
13. Have been so depressed to the point that I have no "control" of my mood (it comes and goes in waves) & I've felt like hurting myself several times.
14. Made new friends...and lost some...
15. Found new music interests.
16. Is apparently in an open relationship, I have a boyfriend AND a female "lover". My female "lover" is helping me through the time I'm away from my boyfriend while I'm in trouble and just helps me in general.
17. Got in trouble & am currently "in trouble" for something I'll explain below.**

** On Wednesday, November 11th, I had no school and my friend, her mom, my boyfriend, and I were supposed to go to the Japanese Gardens in Downtown Portland. I was the one making all the plans the night before and we chose to cancel because it was suppose to be pouring down rain. I still planned on hanging with my boyfriend no matter the cost and walked to his house the next morning, which took two hours. I didn't ask my dad because I knew he would say no, but I didn't want to sit around the house and was suppose to see him anyway. I hung out with him for about an hour and a half, but then realized my dad sent two texts and tried calling. I called back, told him exactly where I was, and he said he'd be on his way to get me. It took him an hour to get there(because he was talking to my mom on his phone), and I got in trouble. My phone was taken and he talked about grounding me for up to six months with a little slack for telling him the truth. Since then, I haven't gotten my phone back, but I haven't been punished. Such irony...


If I remember anything else, I'll update it below. But, therefore, that's what's been going on since I departed and I'll try to keep you updated more often.

Love you all and hope you've been doing well, I'll talk to you all later.


~Ryu


UPDATE: 11/21/09 3:23 PM
Just so you all know, I have gotten my phone back (hopefully for good), and I'm going to Winter Formal tonight (since I "begged" my dad).